Double the faces.

There are a lot of different kinds of people in the world. Coming to college made me realise that very few people are the same both on the inside and the outside. There are times when you stop and look and even though there might be 100 people, you will see 200 faces. Almost every person, whether they admit it or not, wants to be accepted, to be liked, to have friends and to be part of a group. It's not wrong at all. It's human nature to want to be a part of something big, something that matters. But, one should be a part of something that let's them keep their individuality. Does it make any sense to hold on to someone who sucks the real YOU out of you?
And if you can't find a place where you belong then just know that there are many others like you and that they're waiting for someone to take the first step for them. Be that someone. Make your place and theirs too. Because not everyone fits in everywhere and because some are afraid to take the first step. And to let you in on a little secret, I'm waiting for someone to take the first step for me as well. I'm not sure where I belong or what makes me happy. I can lie and say that my happiness lies in someone else's but my life isn't a movie and thats not the truth. Everyone wants to be happy and maybe sometimes they even find their happiness in another person but somewhere down the line they will want to be happy, not for anyone else but for themselves. So, be honest to yourself and go out there and make your life the one happy place YOU want it to be. 

Happy and breathing.

There are times when everything will seem to go in an opposite direction to how you want it to be. There will be people who will seem as though they're trying to make everything difficult. But, maybe I'm just over thinking this. Maybe I have too many doubts. I don't know but whatever it is, I'm okay with it. Because somewhere down the line everything will be fine. Not because I will make it okay but because like all good things come to an end so do all the bad. It might be cliched to say that nothing lasts forever but really it doesn't. At least till now nothing in my life has lasted as long as 18 years (that's how long my forever is ).

Honestly, I'm just really tired of pretending as though everything is fine when a lot of times it isn't. There will never be a time when everything is perfect and i just realised I'm being very highly pessimistic. I'm not always like this. in fact once, when I didn't even know what it meant, someone told me I'm very optimistic.
Well, the truth is I can't write anything right now because anything I say would be a lie because things aren't that good right now but I will convince myself through you thats life is perfect. Its been a while since I put a post here so I just thought that I should let you know happy and breathing.

P.S. Merry Christmas and Happy New Year.