Experiences

There are times in life when even experience can't help you. It's not like the experienced have life easy. No one does. I always thought that even if not real life, first-hand experiences then maybe what others went through would prove to be helpful. But, you know what? It doesn't matter. Nothing does.
 What matters is what you're living right at this moment, because sometimes, in some situations, nothings works but a beating organ. There is nothing that works then, your experiences, their experiences...but then again does anything need to work? I know what you're thinking-"The topic says experiences but there's nothing about that in here". I agree that's what it seems like, but look closely, read again.This post is about experiences. It's about someone who thought she knew what to do because she believed that experiences would never let her feel like this again, but this isn't the same. This is more than that, this is my story. My story about a feeling I honestly cant express no matter how hard I try. Its like feeling every emotion in a breath. Its like dying and living every second, its more than what any experience could have taught. It's life.

Through the mirror.

Today when I was in the car I looked out and saw everything that was outside and it seemed completely normal. And then I looked out again, this time through the rear view mirror and I'm not joking when I say, it was so beautiful I couldn't stop looking. Don't tell me the scene changed and all that. India traffic, nothing changed.

So, all this got me thinking that why was it so much better through a mirror? Well because a mirror shields us and it keeps away the bad things. Say, I keep you in a glass case and things around you seem okay even when they're really bad. Why? Because the glass shields you just like the glass of a mirror. I might not make much sense or be able to prove it much but that's how it is to me. There are a lot of times when I wish I could see my whole life through a mirror because it gets so bad sometimes. But then I think that the day the mirror breaks everything will come at me at once and then I'll be trapped. So what we need isn't a mirror but a path, a path to lead us to the place we want to be in. A place where we'll never feel the need of a mirror, a glass, a shield, nothing,just us. I want to do so many things say do much but I stop because I don't want to have to deal with the circumstances, because I've never had a shield. Things did change in between I started doing everything I wanted to because one person believed in me. He made me believe that I was perfect the way I was, it might have been wrong because everyone has flaws but it boosted my confidence for a long time to come. Even today I can look back at those times and be grateful because to change a person for the good is harder that to change them for the bad. I'm glad it happened. I'm glad there wasn't a shield or else things would have never been so beautiful. Thank you.